"I don't know WHY but I really feel offended by what you just said."
"Can you PLEASE stop doing that? I really dislike it."
"Would you stop talking for a while IF you don't mind? I just need some silence."
"Bear with me, guess I'm having my 'moments' again...sob...sob...sob..."
"Damn it! Don't these people know how to drive?!"
"Why again with all these expenses? I'm so SICK of spending again!"
"Didn't I just say that to you? Can you PLEASE pay more attention next time?"
Etc etc.
Simply too many examples of my recent grumpiness, which was possibly due to the taking of some hormonal pills (Mercilon) since 2 weeks ago, in attempt to prevent the stomachache I had earlier (caused by 'functional cyst') from happening again.
Sometimes I would get upset over nothing while I was 'reasonably' happy just 5 minutes ago.
It also happened once that I suddenly started weeping in the middle of driving, really for no apparent reasons, but I just felt miserable.
The emotions just creeped in when I was most unprepared, like when I was alone, or with the closest people in my life, family for example.
I feel especially sorry for my father, as he is probably among the most unfortunate victims of my mood swings these days. I don't really remember the last time when I spoke to him without raising my voice or being grumpy.
Think my workmates and friends, too, were unable to escape from my emotional attacks as I seemed to be able to spark a fight after a short while of being engaged in a discussion / conversation.
Even though I felt extremely guilty and sorry for my poor manner right after every unnecessary argument, however, it was just almost IMPOSSIBLE for me to control my emotion at those moments.
I was told by the doctor that I might experience some emotional change when I'm on medication of the pills, especially during the first week, as it would trigger the release of certain hormones in my body.
But seriously, never thought this 'change' could be so aggresive and annoying, even to myself. Really can't wait for my body to get used to such hormonal change, and be APPROACHABLE to others again.
Anyway, last yell for tonight:
Inexplicable mood swings, GO AWAY! I want to be sweet again! :D :D :D
